I am so tired of hating shopping for clothes, and being embarrassed by my size. I also hate the way people judge me for everything, from what I wear to what I put in my mouth. I have heard all the judgements and back handed comments and in all honesty I am sick of it. I also do not want to miss out on life anymore. So here I am taking the beginning steps to a life long journey of health.
It is my goal here to be painfully honest. That means I am being real with everything from the good the bad and the ugly. Including the numbers that I hate to really deal with. However I also realize hiding these things are keeping me this way. I figure the best way to keep me going in the right direction is to put it out in the open and be accountable to not only everyone I know, but with literally everyone who cares to read about it.
So that being said it is my goal here to lose this weight once and for all. To save my life, and if I can in the process save a few others out there too, who are like me. I plan on documenting the entire trip down this road and also put in my two cents on what I think about things like recipes, clothing, feelings etc.etc.etc.
So the title of my blog for me was a reality check. I remember watching the shows on TV that showed men on death row headed to their demise. The guards would call out to the other people around them "Dead Man Walking" as they headed into the death chamber. It is a way to let other people around this was the last time this person would see these very halls, it was this person end, their life only moments away from a tragic end for all the bad choices they made.
In all reality, in so many ways it is me. I am a living time bomb waiting to happen. At any moment my heart could screech to a halt tired of carrying around over 100lbs extra weight. I am in that hallway, headed towards a tragic end, that is entirely preventable. I am a Fat Girl Walking my way back to health, and this person who is starting this journey, well...she is not going to be around forever. This is the demise of this sad person who hides in pictures and never shows anyone the full version of her. I will no longer hide who I am and in the process I want to cure what it is that is killing me. For me, my kids, my husband, my family and friends this is a process. So hang on for the ride, I am sure it will be happy, sad and delightful along the road.
Most of all, it will be life changing... at least for me.
Hugs and Lots of Gooey Love
~ Fat Girl
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